Dream Journal
I was standing in a large field in the pouring down rain late at night. There were three cars on the other side of the field: a woman drove the lead car, and two men drove the training cars behind her. Someone to my left said that this was the men’s first time driving, but I told them that they men had already taken their tests: this was their celebration.
The lead car moved forward and the two training cars, side by side, followed. They swerved left and right for a little bit, and then showed off for the little crowd that had gathered. They did some large laps around the field, going in between some of the spectators.
I was sitting hear the edge of a giant umbrella, and then was holding a large umbrella of my own. Depending on the direction I tilted my own umbrella, I could make some very pretty patterns with the rain. As the cars went under the large umbrella, one of the drivers, Robert, looked right at me and I was happy.
They came around again and the drivers were walking, holding their own umbrellas. Robert walked right passed me and touched my cheek tenderly, making me smile. I wanted him to stay by me but he moved on.
Then the announcer called a Russian name and my own; it was our turn. I made eye contact with the Russian girl, and she nodded once then jumped up. I started lacing my shoes and told myself that we could do this.
Themes: Robert
I was sitting in a classroom taking a test. I finished the test very early, so I got up to go to the bathroom. I stepped into a locker room down the hallway, turned on a shower head, and started shaving my legs.
Jeff opened the locker room door and poked his head in. The showers were behind a wall and he couldn’t see me, but I wondered if he actually could see me. He told me that I had missed a few pages and there were only 14 minutes left of the test.
Jeft left and came back with Robert Greaves and another guy, this time coming all the way into the locker room. Robert and the other guy sit in chairs near the showers while Jeff stood, the four of us talking about televisions and the test.
I realized that I was still naked and still shaving my legs, but I didn’t stop even though the guys could see me. Jeff looked uncomfortable with it, though, and tried to act like it was no big deal. I sat down and pulled on my clothing, my thong and jeans over my knees first, then I stood the pull them all the way up together.
Back in the classroom everyone was done with the test except Miriam. There were 2 minutes left so I hurried through the unanswered questions.
The very last question had a number, but no actual question had been written for it: the question part was blank. I didn’t write anything for the blank last question, and felt very confident that I did well. Miriam was crying over her test as Briar collected the tests.
I noticed she had answered the last one in one long paragraph, so I looked at it again and saw that the question was: “Tissue.” I tried to answer it before she grabbed my test because I work in a tissue bank, but I only was able to write, “Tis…” before Briar picked up my test. She looked over my paper and smirked before moving on. I was afraid I had failed.
I was sitting in the hallway of my high school with Ryan and a few other classmates. We were preparing and organizing our three-ring binders for the school year.
I finished explaining how everyone had a different filing system in their binders, and how Ryan’s was different than mine even though we both excelled in school. I stood up and said hi to Robert, who was standing behind me.
I walked with Robert a bit down the hallway when he grabbed Siri out of another group to join us. He told Siri, “This is Valette.” I turned to walk toward the other end of the hallway as Robert continued, “Those are Valette’s legs, and that is Valette’s butt.” I knew that I looked good in the jeans I wore that day.
I was riding a motorcycle with a group of guys, and Robert Greaves was on a bike in front of me. We stopped at a mall and went inside; the hallways were empty.
I felt the edge of this black leather chaps and saw that on the front of his right thigh was the Levi’s logo in silver. I asked him where he bought them because I needed to buy chaps.
There was a scene with the owner and a few other people in the store. A student had charged him with cheating. My group sneaked out a back door, down a few steps, and emerged in an alley behind the mall. I wondered aloud how we were going to find out way back to where we parked.
Themes: Robert
I was standing in front of the high school and Robert Greaves asked me if I would be willing to give Sylvester a ride home from the high school. Sylvester was a few years behind me in school and was deaf and dumb. Even so, we were able to communicate quite well.
I asked him when he needed to be home, and he said that his curfew was 3am. I thought, ‘What am I going to do with you until three?’ but told him that I was sad he had to leave so soon.
We drove around in my car for a while and ended up stopping in a parking lot to watch people walk by. He told me that he loved me and had always loved me. I thought about my engagement to B, but let Sylvester kiss me when he leaned forward.
Themes: Robert
I stood in a large warehouse with rows of very tall shelves. Each shelf was piled with raw meat. There were no signs, but I knew that each aisle held a different type of meat: I could easily make out chicken, pork, beef, moose, and deer.
People stood in and on top of the meat moving it around. No one wore gloves, but I did not find this odd or disgusting.
I walked through the aisles and came across Ryan kneeling on the floor with a piece of white bread probably seven feet square. It was the piece in the loaf that is right next to the heel, and one side of it had heel-like qualities. He complained that the bottom was uneven due to this, and he enlisted my help in cutting it off.
I had a large crush on Robert. We were in some special ops diving group together; everyone in the group was wearing heavy diving suits. We stood in a circle around a hole in the floor of our vessel. One by one, the group members fell back first into the hole and swam under the water backwards. Robert fell in just before I did. Swimming backwards, I went under the water and through a small tunnel.
I then had to urinate, so I go into my mother’s coatroom at the back of her house. There are still a lot of coats, snow pants, hats, gloves, and boots still in the room. I pushed aside a coat to reveal a skinny urinal.
I unzipped my diving suit from my legs up to my crotch. Then I unsnapped my pants like one would unsnap baby clothing to change a diaper. I thought how fortunate I was to have layers like this so I wouldn’t have to completely undress to go to the bathroom.
Once my layers were undone, I backed up to the urinal and began to urinate. A few drops of urine fell onto the boots below the urinal, so I tried rotating my pelvis further back to get better aim.
When I was finished and snapping up my clothing, Damon appeared to my left and leaned over to flush the urinal for me. He saw I got urine on the handle and decided against touching it. I looked on the other side of the small coatroom and found a really fancy toilet paper roll. It was a natural cotton brown color and had a matching tassel. I tore off the tassel and used a few sheets to wipe off the sides of the urinal. I balanced the tassel on the roll and replaced it back to its hook.