rhapsodic dreams

Tropical Island Hug

I was standing on a beautiful tropical beach looking out at the blue sky meeting the blue water. I watched an airplane land on the beach. The runway had been built out of three natural sand bars that ran perpendicular to the beach, one for each of the plane's wheels. I was impressed by the ingenuity of this - surely there isn't much room on tropical islands for full airports - but worried about its safety.

Inside the resort, my travel mates were laughing with the staff about having the air conditioning on so high that the inside temperature was 32 degrees Fahrenheit because we were from Alaska.

Lying on my back on top of the blankets, I was talking to someone in the other room through the open doorway. A customer came into the lobby and rang the bell on the desk. I stood up and was straightening my clothes when the bell rang again. I walked out to the counter and saw a man ring the bell for the third time.

I greeted the man, and he reached over to give me a sideways hug. I awkwardly leaned in, not sure why he wanted a hug because I didn't even know him. The man pulled me in tight, fully against his chest, and proceeded to rub his penis through his jeans.

He wouldn't let me go, and I was unable to say anything. I looked over the man's shoulder at my travel mates, Tanci and Tom, who were reading magazines and not noting what was happening. After a bit I was able to move my lips, and then finally make some sound. I said Help too quietly a few times, then called Tanci's name.

Tanci looked up at me with her eyes wide, and Tom stepped in to yank the guy away and throw him out. I went back to lie on top of the bed and worried about what would happen when the guy wanted to check out and I was there all alone. I wondered why I didn't do anything, why I leaned in for his hug. I told myself that next time I would have a knife, but I don't believe it.

Reclining Toilet

There was a row of toilets facing a large, busy room. I sat on one warily, next to a couple of women chatting. I pushed the seat back like a recliner. The whole chair leaned back into a cover, far enough for complete privacy, but at an odd angle for urinating. I peed at that strange angle, but worried that the urine was going to run down my back.

The chair had been built for shorter people than I, and my head was squished along the plastic side of the chair cover. I hoped it was clean, because I had no other choice but to leave my head against it.

The angle of the chair wasn't stable for my size or weight: the center of gravity was off. While I was still peeing, the chair righted itself. I quickly pushed the chair back again so I could fully empty my bladder.

When done and the chair had been righted, I needed to pull up my high-high blue socks and pull down my skirt without flashing anyone. My skirt was tucked into the top of my socks, and the more I tried to pull up my socks the more my skirt got stuck. i didn't want to draw people's attention by making a big scene, but needed to untuck my skirt.

Lighting Workshop

I was getting ready for work and glanced at the clock. I then realized that I had forgotten about the lighting workshop that day, as well as missed the mixer the night previous. I was supposed to have gotten a ride with Jamie, but completely forgot.

I drove out to Palmer as fast as I could. I arrived late; the group had taken a break and was milling around. I was embarrassed about my small camera but found a nicer one on the hood of my car. I grabbed it and took a few test shots with it. I considered taking it and claiming it as my own, but I didn't.

Inside, I had some trouble finding an open seat. I finally sat down and Toffee the hamster crawled out of my bag. I played with her for a bit, and she bit me. I wondered what I would do with her for the whole day, and tried to put her back into my bag without her jumping onto the floor. The person sitting next to me looked worried about the hamster.

When the instructor came back, I lifted the camera I found above my head and said that I had found it on my car. The instructor took it and took a few test shots, and then a woman raised her hand and said it was hers.

He started instruction, but I had a difficult time following. Briar & Nadia walked into the class looking skinny and put-together, both wearing green. I adjusted my smart green skirt and green knee socks, feeling self-conscious and not wanting them to recognize me.

Melissa then walked in with our chihuahua Chilly and lied down on the couch by the table of snacks. I sat with her and asked what she was doing. She had sneaked away from the mall and got Lacey from a boarding house. She told me that after Mom dropped me off, she left Lacey in Anchorage because she didn't feel like Lacey should come home.

We both pet Lacey and then I surprised Melissa by pulling Toffee out of my bag. We loved on both animals for a bit and then I told her I had to get back to the class. The instructor was doing a slide show and I wasn't following along. I put Toffee back in my bag and Melissa left with Lacey.

There were two long tables with chairs on one side facing a projection screen. When I sat back down, the man next to me squeezed my knee and his hand lingered. I pushed it off annoyingly, and saw it was the cute actor from The Office. He was confused because women always liked his hand on their legs.

I could only understand bits and pieces of the presentation. It was like a movie trailer with disjointed information. I could see the table full of cookies on the other side of the room and realized I was very hungry.

Ski Lift

I was at a ski resort and needed to pay for two lift tickets and ski rentals. The total came to over $100, and I asked if I could pay the bill with foreign currency. They wouldn't accept foreign money even though I had three $300 foreign bills in my wallet. I wondered why I even had them.

I had to pick a chair lift as my home base, and wanted to pick #2 like everyone else. But it had been so long since I skied that I would probably spend all day on chair lift #3 or #7. After a lot of deliberation, I was told that the home chair supposedly didn't matter.

I was still trying to decide when a black cloud rolled over the ski lodge and burst with lightning. The lodge owner wasn't pleased and wanted it to go.

Pink Tooth Stolen

Steve and I were at the grocery store, and I paid for our items with cash from my very fat wallet. When we left, I discovered that I had lost my small pink tooth. I still had my big pink tooth. I went back to the grocery store and asked the woman who checked us out about my small pink tooth. She said that a girl had found one, and pointed her out to me.

I knew she had my tooth and confronted her, but she denied it. I grabbed her, angry, and shook her shoulders. I squeezed her wrist hard and dragged her around. I yelled at her that I wanted it back. She admitted to finding it in a long, dark tunnel, and told me that she wouldn't give it back.

I told her that if she gave it back to me I would tell her how to find one of her own. She agreed and I told her where to find a pink tooth before she gave mine back. I realized my mistake and knew she would never give it back to me.

I pinned her to the ground, spread her legs, and looked inside her vaginal lips. She rolled her eyes, not struggling against me at all. It wasn't there.

Evacuation

There was an emergency and we needed to evacuate. I put Lacey in her kennel and the hamster in her travel cage, but there were three or four other pets that I couldn't find. We had to go immediately, but I was panicked. I didn't want to leave any animal behind.

New Choir Instructor

I was sitting in Ninilchick with the new school choir instructor for the peninsula. Dad was going to run against him in the election. There were signs all around town asking people to donate to the new guy. After talking with Dad about his wanting to run against the man, I ran back to Mom and asked how I could donate to their campaign. She told me he was sitting in the principal's office, and I could just go give him some money.

I didn't want to meet him, so I sat down. I couldn't remember if I had any cash on me. I sat with Mom and Jen, talking about the new instructor and his family. Jen had asked them if they had any arrangements for their vehicles, and he asked her, "What vehicles?" I asked Jen where they were from, and she told me Central Park. She had explained about four-wheelers and snow machines and trucks and trailers and they had gotten very excited. They had never driven before.

Boardwalk

I was standing on the boardwalk looking out over a little cove on a sunny and warm afternoon. The kids down on the beach had been given a miniature monster truck to drive around. Their playing got a little out of control, and the truck flew into the water and flipped over. The wheels were so large that the truck was still drivable upside down. I worried the kids would be stuck in the cab upside down, and was glad they were buckled in.

A woman, nearly naked, stepped onto the boardwalk with me. Her grandson came behind her and she hastily covered herself, but I knew that she secretly wanted to seduce him. She moved over to the railing and posed so that her breasts showed through the grass skirt she had pulled up to her armpits.

Looking out over the water, she grabbed her left breast with her left hand and pretended to absently play with herself, pulling her long breasts far away from her body. Her face looked young and her hair a curly red, like Laurie from Trading Spaces. She looked much too young to be a grandmother. But her body looked old, her breasts pendulous and saggy.

The woman's grandson ignored her, watching the kinds in their new monster truck. I jumped over the railing and into the water, uncomfortable with the woman trying to seduce her own grandson. I waded through the water around a small point where I discovered a beautiful waterfall. The spray from the waterfall felt wonderful and I stepped right into it, letting the powerful water rush over me.

Then I was having sex with Steve, but he had a vagina. I rubbed his clitoris and knew that he wanted me to put a finger in his anus, but I didn't want to. A very light pink, glistening thing unfolded itself from his anus and beckoned to me like a finger. I was disgusted, but knew I just had to get it over with.

I got up and walked outside, still naked. I saw signs about sexually treating 3-, 4-, and 5-year-olds. I was upset about the pedophilia until I saw a man with his pet rabbit; I realized that the signs were about rabbits, not children. The man was shocked to see me naked. I headed back to my rabbit hutch and climbed in, hoping the man wouldn't follow but knew that he would. I lied down next to Steve and tried to cover myself as much as possible.

Potato Soup

Steve asked me what I did with B's sunglasses. They were in my purse. Steve told me that I have to throw them away but I didn't want to.

Steve, B, and I went into a hotel room together. There was a huge pot of beans and whole potatoes cooking on the stove. B helped me move the heavy pot, and I wondered how he would take it if I kissed him on the cheek. He goes into the bathroom and I lied down on one of the two beds, curled into a fetal position on my left side.

Steve lied down on top of the covers facing me, but I don't straighten my legs, instead I kept my knees between us. Steve told me again that I had to throw away B's sunglasses. They were the ones I gave him as a Christmas present one year with the interchangeable lenses. Steve told me how important it is and why I needed to throw them away, but I was feeling depressed and didn't want to get out of bed.

B came back in and started to scoop out the bean & potato soup. I jumped up and told him to stop, remembering that I hadn't seasoned it at all, not even with any salt. I made him pour it all back into the over -- the soup was no longer in its pot, but was just sitting in the bottom of the oven.

There wasn't as much soup as I had remembered, and I wasn't sure how much salt to add. The potatoes were still whole, but soft. The soup wasn't very hot. I wondered how I was going to get it out of the oven.

Cracked Toilet

In the changing room of a thrift store were six bathroom stalls. One of the stalls was very clean. I sat down on the toilet to urinate, but the bowl was cracked down the middle so that when I put my weight on it, the bowl collapsed and I fell onto the dirty floor.

The other stalls were very dirty, but I kept checking one stall after the other just in case I missed one. I really needed to pee, but was still holding a pile of thrifted clothes in my hands and I didn't know where to put them.

Creepy Photographer

I was in a fellow photographer’s basement. I was staying in his spare room and the next day we would be doing a joint photo shoot. I was getting creepy vibes from him and his basement. I heard him turn on the modem in the other room. I took his computer out of sleep and found pornography on the screen. He came into the room and, seeing the computer on, became embarrassed and apologized.

He was a very hairy man in his late 50s, and I was very uncomfortable being around him. I excused myself to take Lacey outside. When I came back inside he asked when we would be getting started the next day, he was thinking 7 or 7:30. I asked if it could be any later so I could sleep in more, but he said that every hour wasted is an hour of extra work later. I agreed to 7:30.

He stood there staring at me and I occupied myself with my camera and flash equipment. He said that he wanted to find some way to sync both of our cameras. I told him that we could sync flashes, but probably not cameras.

He pulled out a green optical slave trigger and stuck it into a ceiling panel. I went into the other room to get my optical slave trigger, and also to put more space between the two of us. I realized that I had been here before.

The next morning I had breakfast with the man, a woman, and two kids at a table on the beach. The woman and kids were not his family. He stood off to the back, not participating in the meal. The woman divided coasters between everyone; we were to toss them into a pile and I was to go first. I did very well tossing my coaster and could feel him watching over my shoulder.

I excused myself from the table and found a group of three women in bikinis at the beach for a bachelorette party. I gave them ideas of fun things to do.

Then I was swimming up a channel. The man stood on shore watching me, telling me to go the other way back towards his home because that way would be easier. I told him that I had almost made it and would be just fine going the way I was.

I had to go back into his basement to get my equipment. He was asleep on the couch; I tip-toed around him and slipped out the patio door. There was snow all over outside. I trudged through the snow and saw my parents' car in the church driveway. I jumped in just before they left and Melissa gave me a concerned look, but didn't say anything.

The car is cramped but I am happy to be away from that man. My dad reached behind his seat and squeezed my knee so that it would tickle. I was so upset that he was touching me that I started screaming at him, which amused him so much that he squeezed my knee more. I bit his hand really hard, but he just laughed. I wanted to cry.

Bookstore Argument

Steve and I had a long argument in the parking lot outside of a bookstore. Steve said something hurtful and I didn't want to let him get away with it, but he turned around and walked into the bookstore. I followed him in and silently fumed as he selected a book to rent, presumably for me.

The woman behind the counter recognized him. He grabbed his frequent-purchase punch card and stamped it repeatedly with a $5 stamp for all of the purchases he had made at the fair.

Snow Race

I was running through the snow using my hands for balance and speed because the snow was very deep. It was a race and there were prizes for the fastest person with dogs, and the fastest without. I didn't have any dogs.

As I got closer to the finish and the sky started lightening into dawn, the snow was full of footprints. All of the footprints slowed me down. I stood up straight because my hands were no longer helping, and continued running into town. I came across Ryan and his assistant, who were acting in some official capacity. They decided they would run with me, but the assistant dropped out soon.

I was surprised that I was able to keep up with Ryan and wondered if he was going slower for me. We pushed to the finish line, a hotel desk staffed by a very pregnant woman. I jokingly asked her what her time was for the race, and she looked at me not amused as she entered our information into the computer. I wondered if she had been asked that question by every other racer.

I wanted to know how we did and what place we finished, but didn't ask. I knew it would be announced at the award ceremony.

Vacation Apartment

Steve and I went to our new vacation apartment at the far end of the lake. We walked into the upstairs apartment because the door was open. It was very nice and done in all white: the walls, carpet, furniture were all white. I wondered if we were supposed to have the downstairs apartment instead, because the upstairs one was too nice. I went downstairs to see if I could look into that apartment, and met its occupant, my neighbor.

I asked her if she had a key to the upstairs apartment, and she walked me back upstairs and then just walked in. I glanced over at Steve, sitting at the computer naked. I tried to tell him to get dressed without alerting my neighbor that he was naked.

She looked out the window and said that we were he third house from the end of the lake, with one of the best views, and it was quiet out there. I just wanted her to go and stop being nosy.

Then I was at the grocery store looking for Pantene conditioner but I couldn't find it. I went up and down all of the aisles and thought about asking where it was, but decided they probably didn't carry it.

Then I was back at the vacation apartment with a few other people, and one of the guys was flirting pretty heavily with me. He was funny and cute and charming. He was leaning one elbow onto the kitchen counter while I was laughing, and I realized that he was Steve. His face didn't look like steve, and even though Steve was standing behind him talking to some other people, he was Steve too. I had a crush on this new Steve.

Bassinette Required

I got out of bed because I had to urinate. In the bathroom, I emptied my extremely full bladder and was amazed at the amount of urine coming out of my body. When I was done urinating, I gave birth to a baby.

I held my baby, surprised at the suddenness of the birth. I carried it out into the living room and placed the baby on the couch where it fell asleep. I went into the office and told Steve that the baby was sleeping. I sat down at my computer and Steve was at his computer.

After a bit, I realized that we didn't have a bassinette for the baby. We didn't have anything for the baby. Where would the baby sleep if we didn't have a bassinette?

I called Damon and told him that I had given birth, and asked if he wanted to come over and see the baby. He asked me if I was at the airport, and I said that I was at home, just a few blocks away from him. He said that he would be right over. I grabbed a tank top to put on, but couldn't untangle it enough to get it over my head.