Dream Journal
I had planned on reproducing some sort of ritual in where I would be killed. I had enlisted the help of a Hawaiian/Polynesian to kill me for this ritual. He has done such rituals before.
I was standing in Damon’s entryway while this man prepared for the ritual in Damon’s living room. He wandered back and forth a lot, acting as if he weren’t very prepared to be doing any sort of killing.
Damon, Dana, Beth, and B all told me goodbye and went outside. Melissa was standing next to me not saying anything. She watched the Polynesian man walking confusedly around with me. I felt that she was standing with me like she did just before my wedding ceremony started - to be with me as long as possible. When she sensed that she could no longer be beside me, she gave me a big, hard, long hug.
Through her hug, I knew that she didn’t want me to go through with the ritual - she didn’t want me to die even though she wouldn’t say anything.
After some consideration and after the hug, I told the Polynesian man that I didn’t think I was ready to go through with it. He told me that many people think they are ready when they aren’t, and he completely understood. He told me to let him know when I was ready to finish the ritual.
Melissa and I left Damon’s place and got into her car - the one B and I had bought. I got into the drivers seat, and she in the passengers seat.
Themes: Melissa